Saturday, January 31, 2009

The bird who flew out of the nest

This selection is quite interesting. I first stumbled upon this song in my cousin's wedding CD. Since I unfortunately lost the case, I didn't really get the chance to actually know the title of the song. Then, about 3-4 years later, while Reese and I were sitting on the couch trying to look for cool songs, she said, "Do you listen to Tony Terry?" I had said that I wasn't familiar with him and his work. So, she searched up one of his songs in Imeem. To my surprise, it was the song that I was searching for this whole time. So, for your hearing pleasure, Here's When I'm With You by Tony Terry:

When Im With You - Tony Terry

So, to start off, I just realized that I had not blogged yesterday. Ugh! I was on a streak too! I was blogging everyday except for yesterday. Oh well! Anyway, I woke up to a weird dream. I was taking part in a reality T.V. show and I was supposed to box with a random contestant. I was very very afraid on who I was going to be pitted up against but I knew I was going to win for it was MY dream. Anyway, when I was finally getting called up, I heard "You don't have to call" by Usher. I thought to myself, "Well, that's weird." Then I realized that it was my ringtone and woke up immediately. It was actually my mother asking what my foot size was so she could buy me boots for school on Monday (SCHOOL ON MONDAYYYY! NOOOO!). Anyway, I jumped back into bed and instantaneously traveled back into dream land. It was a different dream, however. This time, it started off in a hall and there were kids causing pandemonium and such then gradually switched to a scene where I'm riding in a car with my Uncle as the driver. For some reason, there were numerous amounts of people on the freeway (mostly women from what I remember) promoting gay rights or something. It was quite freaky because in that one scene alone, I would have to say we almost got into 3-4 accidents and actually hitting 1 car. I don't know what the hell that was about. Then, I woke up:]

So, I laid on my bed motionless for about 20-30 minutes thinking about nothing, really. Then, I decided to open up one of the backpacks I had packed inside one of my boxes. So, I rushed to where my box had been placed, open the lid, and I yanked it out past the shoes and the CDs. And the backpack, if I may say, was quite heavy. So, I swiftly opened the backpack and reached for the big card sticking out. It was my "Good Bye" card from my friends at Northridge Academy High School (NAHS). So, I began to read through the little messages one by one. The more I read, the more my heart became heavy. I missed these fellas more than anything in the world (except for my sister of course). Then, like clockwork, I once again began to reminisce. Oh I miss the happy times. Then, it hit me again that school starts in less than 48 hours. Oh how different it will be. However, I must make the best of it. I shouldn't be afraid of going to a new school. I'm doing this for me and my future. So, in a sense, if I'm afraid of going to school, I'm afraid of my own future (If that made sense. Don't worry, I'm just trying to empower my self mentally). Anyway, I guess it will be a new experience. I'm only going in for one semester anyway (HOPEFULLY! OH HOW I PRAY TO GOD THAT IT'S ONLY ONE SEMESTER!).

It's really hard to say this but I miss California more and more everyday. I try hard to adapt to this new place, and I'm slowly warming up to it (Get it? Warming up? Cause it's cold and snowing? AHHH you know what I mean;]). However, what got to me was (I don't know if I had said this on my previous blog but I'm going to restate it anyway cause this is my site and I could practically do whatever I want with it and whenever I want:]) Vaughn's voicemail the other day. I actually do believe I've stated this before. Oh well! It just got to my heart, that's why. Don't worry, 3 years will be nothing. Yo Vaughn (Including Stephen, Ate Lyza, Kuya Jeff, Justin, John, Jon, and everyone else. You know who you are), just think of it like this, If we were able to be friends for more than 3 years, this little obstacle will be a piece of cake. You know that and I know that. It's just a matter of time before you start planning out a reunion, nigg!

And since this is a blog about me flying away from the nest, I just wanted to say that I truly do miss my sister more than anything in the world. I've never cried harder than the last moments we spent together in that airport terminal. That scene just can't be erased from my memory bank. I recall the first night that I arrived in Canada, I locked myself in the room that my brother and I were given to use, and just hid under the blankets. Clutching the little Beanie Baby (in the form of a monkey) that she had given to me the day before my family's departure, and attempting to halt the flow of the tears from my eyes to the comforter, I gave her a call to tell her that I missed her and I loved her very much. Don't worry, Ate, we'll be back soon:]

Anyway, once again, this was a pretty lengthy blog. I understand if you're bushed right after you read this. Actually, you might not even read this thing at all:] Nevertheless, I got to say what I wanted to and I got things out of my pecks (I'm a man so I don't have a chest;] Joke). I greet you a Good Morning California because it's barely 10:24 am there and it's already 1:24 pm here. Thanks for stopping by and Stay Classy, San Diego.


Thursday, January 29, 2009

Anyway that we coincide is love

So, today was the first time I actually had the change to use BlogTV in a while. However, Jagg told me that it was getting quite old:] Nevertheless, I still used it. I never really openly video blogged live without a guitar before (well, there were times before this one but this particular blog was longer than those). So, that was quite interesting if I may say. JecJec cohosted me and this is what she came up with.

Cartoon Me

I really think she captured my image:]
Anyway, while reading my blog, enjoy this tune that Ms. Alerissa Mariano showed me a couple of days ago (wish her luck cause she's playing UCLA with her sister AJ along with Jagg and Randy P). I've heard the song before but I never really knew who sang it. My, I was so naive:

Caught Up In The Rapture - Anita Baker

Well, today was quite interesting if you ask. Woke up to a good mood actually. After lying in bed under the covers for a good twenty minutes, deciding whether to pick up my iPod and listen to a few tunes just to start out the morning well or just put it off, I believe I made the right decision. Those few songs just set me up for about the rest of the day. Let me tell you something. Nothing is as relaxing in the morning like lying in bed for a good 30 minutes listening to Dwele or the Foreign Exchange. I think there were some John Legend thrown in there too. Ohh what a line up! Anyway, after waking up, my dad urged me to help him with shoveling the driveway. Usually, this was my brother's job. Unfortunately for me, he was still asleep. So, I was the only choice. I was planning on running today but I believe that carrying a weighty shovel, dragging it on the ground (and occasionally pushing it forward), and tossing a good amount of snow was enough to replace that idea of running. It sure did the trick. The pain that coursed through my body felt as if I've shoveled for a good 30 minutes;] Well, I believe I'm over exaggerating. It didn't even hurt. I guess I just said that to impress you guys (JOKE JOKE JOKE!). Anyway, I spent my evening blogging (as I have said in my intro). Initially, it was only JecJec who I was conversing with, then JP entered in. Since Jec was pretty bored, she decided to do a little caricature of me (as you will see in the image about if you have not already). I should feel special however. She revealed to me that she does not normally do this kind of work in such short time. She told me that once a person asks for her to draw them, it usually takes her a day or sometimes even a week before she begins on the project. Lucky Me! Then, JJ went on saying that he wasn't going to Jagg's show. What a little Liar:] He then showed me the Barrel Man that he had promised me, with everyone's names written all over the barrel. I love that man. Hopefully he could ship it out to me.

I was surprised however! I had not known that most of the FCF youth were in his house! I felt so joyful and excited seeing them and them greeting me. I can't even explain how i felt. Then, I showed Michael Sean his portrait that I took with me all the way here to Canada. All of them went "AWWWWW!" as if they all of a sudden became invigorated by something. I don't know, that was pretty funny. I told him I was taking it with me all the way here:] Anyway, after that, I just TokBoxed with Jec for pretty much the remainder of the whole night. And Oh! My Australian friend, Ms. Nessa Ramos showed me her new video. Here's a link:] . She's so talented. If you think you're "a girl who puts up with her guys lies but realizes in the end that she doesn't have to take it anymore and she can do her own thing," you must listen to this song.

Once again, I bid you a fair evening and thank you for putting up with my pretty lengthy blogs. It's already 12:12 here and must I emphasize my dislike of the 3 hour difference with California. Ughhh! So once again my friends, Goodnight and have a pleasant Tomorrow!


Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Trust me baby, I confide in your love

Dwele just keeps on amazing me!
Enjoy this tune and let him put you in a love trance.

Dwele - Kick Out of You - Dwele

Today was quite enjoyable. To be honest, I really had nothing to do. So, I spent the day the same way I did for the ones that preceded today: practicing "singing." Since I really have no guitar handy, might as well work with the one I can never really get rid of, right? :] Anyway, that was such a pleasant activity. Besides that, however, I really did nothing. Oh! I just remembered. School starts next week, that is if I get my transcripts in time and I set up an appointment for my classes. I'm pretty sure that will go smoothly. I'm not really that excited to start school again. I had the chance to visit the school once and didn't really get the vibe that I had wanted. Nevertheless, the thrill of learning I hope will compensate for that. I really do miss school though. Haha! Speaking of school, my former schoolmates (and still my bestfriends) revealed to me information that probably made my High School Career worth it. I just found out I was voted best musician in Northridge Academy for the class of 2008-2009! Go Pumas! Oh how I miss my school. I have confidence in saying that NAHS has one of the best student teacher/staff relationships out of a lot of schools in the area. Hehe.

Ohh Wee! It's good that I got the troubles out of my head and just goin' with the flow as sj2 might say. Just cruisin' by and trying to make the best out of my situation. As My Main Man, Ray (Randolph P-izza;]) told me, "Just do you!" And that's what I've been doing.

Ya'll have a wonderful rest of the evening and I hope you stop by next blog;]
I'm pretty sure that one will be more interesting than this one. Hehe!


Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Cause my voice can't reach you

This is my medium of choice. Feelgood music just gets to you especially after a shi**y day.

Closer - Slum Village

Really, it does seem as if the days keep getting worse and worse. Despite my life being so idle at the moment, though it is expected during the first months of a major move, I can't help but feel it'll just head downhill from here. However, I must keep an optimistic view. I can't help but just think about the good ol' times. I remember this, always. Nothing beats just chillin with Vaughn, Stephen, and John in the Prelude. Cruisin down whatever road, trying to argue on our destination, them doin' their thing and me doin' mine. Sometimes just sharing random stories on how our life is goin' [whether it was going well or going horribly, nothing was a bad topic]. Just as long as we spoke to each other and expressed what was goin on in our minds everything would be just fine. I remember my last few weeks in California. There was some things going on between all of us that bothered one anothing. However, knowing that we resolved that just reinforced the already concrete fact that we all truly will stay friends. Though the distance is great, the connection will never disappear.

I apologize for all the drama. It's just that the mood ain't to great today. At least not better than yesterday. Too many things bothering me lately and I just wanted to "vent." Haha. It's just funny that I keep listening to "Closer" and it feels like I need to keep writing. Does it help that I put it on repeat? I guess no one will really know. Hopefully tomorrow truly will be a brighter day, though I really doubt it. To start a new topic, I am really thankful that God has provided both my parents with great job interviews and for always blessing us and keeping us safe. I guess Kuya Jeff instilled in me the hobby of praying. I even say "Lord, God" everytime I pray now. So, thank you for that Kuya Jeff! Hopefully I get to that point Kuya Jeff! [You know what I'm talking about].

Hehe. I would also like to thank Jessica Luanne Ilagan for telling me a very crude joke though it did add some levity to my evening. May you sleep well at night with that notion:] Haha!
And also to Jamila, who appears to be suffering with the "under the weather" blues. Hope you get well soon:]

Well, I guess I'm out for this evening. Have yourself a wonderful evening.


Sunday, January 25, 2009

Wait for me to move out West

Enjoy the song while reading these words I type:

Playing Favorites (Acoustic) - The Starting Line

These past few days, It's really getting more and more difficult. I've probably visited Toronto about 4 times in a span of 2 days. Everytime I see this urban area (and the lifestyle that surrounds it) the more my eagerness to go back seems to grow. I cannot really explain how saddened I am, everyday that I am thousands of miles away from my true home. It just doesn't feel comfortable. Often times I would lie in bed listening to my iPod and a song would come in that would make me reminisce about a certain event that happened back in L.A. Everytime this happens, I would close my eyes and imagine the moment. I concentrate deeply on it until eventually I feel like as if I'm actually living it once again. I feel every emotion that I actually felt and all the happiness and the joys that occured. For that short moment I find happiness; seeing all the faces, and though it may sound weird, reliving the experiences. Eventually, however, I would have to open my eyes and see a white wall, right on top of me. Then, i try to hold back a tear that coaxes itself out. I do very well in supressing it. Nothing seems right though I try very hard to get used to this new place. I know I haven't really touched on this subject on my previous posts but I just felt like I had to today. Things hve been bothering me lately and I am "down" as one might say. I can't really explain why but my heart feels so heavy. I just want to be back home, where I truly belong. Where all my friends and family wait for me. To see all their faces, smiles, and even frowns. It doesn't matter what expression their faces depict as long as I am there with them. I miss everyone, I truly do. This song, however, doesn't do me well. It makes me too sad but its words truly speak what my heart wants to say. I love you all and I hope you know that.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Ketchup Chips!

Okay, so today, we finally took a trip down to the nearest stores to do some food shopping. Believe it or not, there's actually Wal-Mart here. Lol. I found it really funny. Anyway, we first visited this one store called the "Bulk Barn." Now, this store was really interesting. Supposedly, it's cheaper here 'cause the items they sell aren't in their standard packages. They're organized and placed into specific bins and it's really all up to you on how much you would want to buy. They measure the price based on the weight and all the jazz. Lol. The cashier had asked me whether I was a student or not and I froze. I didn't know what to answer on account of I wasn't really in school yet. I was afraid she was going to ask for my ID if i had said I was a student. Lol. My mom nudged me and a "Yes!" came out of my mouth. The cashier laughed and apparently there was a student discount. Haha!. Then, we headed over to Zehrs which looked like a really upscale Gelsons (yes, there really is another grocery store more upscale than Gelsons) and rushed over to the chips section. I had remembered that in Canada, they had substituted the Chili flavored Lays (such as in California) for Ketchup flavored ones. At least that's what Stephen told me. So, as soon as I arrived, there in front of me were the Ketchup chips. Lol. I don't know, small things like that make me happy. Anyway, as soon as I got home, I decided not to eat it and wait for tomorrow:] So, I won't really get to taste it yet. But as soon as the sun rises, goodbye Ketchup chips! Lol.

Regardless of what happened today, the day did go by rather slowly. Did nothing really but to pace back and forth inside the house, confined due to the massive amount of snow surrounding our home. Lol. I mean, it's not that much really, but it's hella cold! Lol. I've decided to sleep early also. I think this sleeping late thing is actually making me break out pretty badly. Well, not that badly:] But yeah. Apparently, mah Nigga also passed her PreCal exam. Way to go! Haha. Hope she passes her other exams too. Hope to talk to her tonight before I sleep, at least.

Well, have a wonderful evening and I shall inform you tomorrow on how the Ketchup chips went!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Hoping that tomorrow is a brighter day

I find it rather amusing how a song can say so much in just a matter of minutes. Meanwhile, some of us can't even express our true feelings in a span of days, months or even years. Here's another tune that tickles the brain. All you have to do is click play and let the music take you away:

The Light 2008 (Its Love) - Common

(For some reason, Common always reminds me of Stephen)

Let me start out by saying that no matter how hard I attempt to find amusement in my new location, I really can't. I'm not saying that it's a horrible place (it's not at all!). I guess it's just I miss everyone so terribly that I had lost the ability bring up any other emotion in my own personal box-- at least temporarily. However, the snow is quite lovely. Though it does hurt when you stand outside for too long, the sight of the houses, streetlights, the streets, and sometimes a helpless bird covered in a white blanket truly is majestic. But nothing can ever beat the Valley lights. Oh how it just glows just past the mountains makes you feel welcome and calms the senses. I am really going to miss that. So, all of you Californians, don't take that for granted! Haha! I just remembered something. I remembered complaining a couple days back that whenever I wake up and take a peek outside, the mountains are no longer there. It's really, for the lack of a better word, WEIRD! Nevertheless, someday I will see them once again and all the denizens residing in proximity to it. Hope all is well with you all and Have a wonderful tomorrow. I miss you all<3

P.S. Pray that mah Nigga passes her PreCal exam tomorrow. Lol. She said she would call me later on, though I really doubt it, cause you know, she gets me into a whole heap of trouble:] (JK! Call me later. Lol) I bid you goodnight, to everyone who is 3 hours in the past!

Monday, January 19, 2009

A 5 minute poem

Not literally a 5 minute poem, just took me 5 minutes to write. What can I say, i have inspiration:] It's still rough like sandpaper:

Her smile so big it blocks out the sun.
And though the cold grips me so heavily
I do not fret for her heart always seems
To keep me warm
No matter how far or how near.

Though her frame is tiny
She carries within it a giant heart
That beats so distinctly it is reminiscent
Of Hip-Hop, Pop-Lock, and Beat-Box
[iTunes] that peer into the souls of many [especially mine]
And involuntarily urges you to nod your head with
Carelessness yet accompanied with a sense
Of Security and Assurance.

And though she is far
Her heartbeats form some kind of
Morse Code that only I can Decode
With the ease of hot knife through butter.

Lame, I know:] Have a nice day and don't forget to read my previous blog:]


Oh how the day passes by so quickly

While reading my silly little post, enjoy this little selection from "The Foreign Exchange"

I Wanna Know - The Foreign Exchange

Oh how the day passes by so quickly. It's actually been like this since the first day I stepped into the country. I don't know if it's jet lag, staying up late;], or just straight up some other reason. Nevertheless, nothing alleviates the sun from passing by just so damn fast. I try so hard to grasp the day but nothing can really be done. With a moat of snow surrounding me, nothing literally can be done. It's always too cold to take a relaxing stroll down the street and there's always, unfortunately, a risk of frostbite. Although a black foot does look dope, it's not something I would want:] The lifestyle here is so different. People just stay inside due to the freezing cold and watch T.V. (well, maybe it's just me). Trying so scrape the frost off the windows just to see outside of the car is still something I'm trying to get used to. I'm sure I will eventually. I currently reside in a town called Barrie in Ontario, Canada. It's approximately an hour away from Toronto. Speaking of Toronto, I actually got to visit yesterday. Our uncle drove us around showing us the various places and spots in the city. Literally, it straight up reminds me of Los Angeles but with snow all around. I actually would like to live there. It's not different from the lifestyle that I was used to in California. Now, speaking of California, I do miss everyone. I miss my sister who just chills at my aunts house:] Also miss my friends who are living their lives without me;] Y'know? Haha. It's actually really hard not knowing anyone here. It gets pretty lonely, like emotionally. Haha. However, the connections never really disappeared. Still see them online, BlogTV (goober! Freaking Jagg. Lol), Skype, Myspace, Facebook, AIM, you name it. Phone calls never hurt also:] Ms. California (yeah, you know who you are, Nigga:]), you better not forget to call. Lol. And do your homework;] Anyway, I guess this is pretty long for the first blog so I'll just keep it short. Haha. Want you guys to come back for more, y'know? Lol. Keep it safe and keep me posted. Love you all<333>